tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23876711247647144342024-03-05T11:34:04.189-08:00TΡΟΜΟΣ ΤΟΥ ΛΕΓΕΙΝthe beast/zero negativehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06435867163224188663noreply@blogger.comBlogger73125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2387671124764714434.post-4947279795540473462011-09-20T05:52:00.000-07:002011-09-20T05:55:51.652-07:00αγαπητό ημερολόγιο...today i hate the world ....AGAINthe beast/zero negativehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06435867163224188663noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2387671124764714434.post-32727788125533124252011-07-26T23:43:00.000-07:002011-07-26T23:45:15.512-07:00♚ XRISTIANISMOS (Oles oi apanthseis pou psaxnete)<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi7fdgUWG7KLGsHK1pkBjrOo5bNaLGflWp200yEq-OHxWnxgLTz3nW2_BOECP37ZThNFSpzQuQNw9ukexzltfnlXXmt18qgFywUXHK_LIhQnRRARzrXKYj6vxGkx38T75wAJyzvvrcWPfY/s1600/250829_10150210838659577_803644576_6740785_7831670_a.jpg"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 180px; height: 173px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi7fdgUWG7KLGsHK1pkBjrOo5bNaLGflWp200yEq-OHxWnxgLTz3nW2_BOECP37ZThNFSpzQuQNw9ukexzltfnlXXmt18qgFywUXHK_LIhQnRRARzrXKYj6vxGkx38T75wAJyzvvrcWPfY/s400/250829_10150210838659577_803644576_6740785_7831670_a.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5633919439416074242" /></a><br />Ti eine h Agia triada?Uparxei theos?O Ihsous xristos htan istoriko proswpo?Ginonte thaumata?Tha uparksei swthria?Yphrkse ontws nekranastash?Tha uparksei deutera parousia?O theos mas agapaei?<br /><br /> <br /><br />Ola arxisan otan o Jesus Christ (gnwstos kai ws J.C.) hrthe sth gh.<br /><br />Ti htan? Pws ekane thaumata? Pws anastithike?<br /><br />MA EINAI APLO..o J.C. htan enas apo tous PRWTOUS MMORPG players pou actually UPHRKSAN. Nai kala akousate.O J.C. htan enas 30 level Cleric (20 epic kai 10 divine) o opoios (ontas kai ligo noob) vrethike sthn gh kathos odeue na kanei ena Quest gia to Guild tou.<br /><br /> <br /><br />Pws ekane thaumata?<br /><br />..me SPELLS fusika. To Cure light wounds to eixe kanei pswmoturi.Enoiote xrhsimopoiouse kai kana Cure Serious Wounds alla poso life na exoun pia oi noobades xwrikoi tis tote epoxhs. Episis pswmoturi eixe kai ta remove curse kai remove disease. Legete malista pws eixe pozeriastei toso pou eixe ftasei sto shmeio o IDIOS na tuflwnei ta thumata tou me Blindness/Deafness wste na exei panta me kati na epidikniei tis ikanotites tou.<br /><br />Alla spells pou xrhsimopoihse ,kai eine gnwstos gia auta, eine: Purify Food and Drink pou xrhsimopoihthike sto mustiko dipno, Bless water gia na xei agiasmo, Command gia na exei tous gnwstous ws "mathites" tou (tha mporouse na exei perisoterous alla eine gantemozaros) tous opoious mathites tou eniote tous buffare me kana bless klp gia na mhn ton afisoun siksilo alla den petuxene oute auto panta (vlepe Iouda). Episis to Create food and water eixe xrhsimopoihthei arketes fores, htan arketoi oi psomolisasmenoi tote, KAI FUSIKA to Prayer to opoio egine kai megalo Hit-aki kai prospoioumaste OLOI pws to kanoume swsta alla pote den douleuei gia kanenan..GIATI ARAGE? Mhpws twra arxisate na katalavainete?<br /><br /> <br /><br />Pws anastithike?<br /><br />Ma fusika me ena aplo Resurrection.Afou anastithike de kai gurise sto Guild tou, to opoio eine gnwsto kai ws AGIA TRIADA, efage ena uber kraksimo apo ton Guild master gnwsto kai ws THEO ,o opoios eine 80 lvl Paladin, kai tou eipe pws eine toso noob kai gantemozaros pou tha tou stelnei mazi apo dw kai pera to Agio pneuma, 40 lvl vardo kai trito kai teleutaio melos tou guild, na ton buffarei mpas kai kanei kati swsta.<br /><br /> <br /><br />Tha uparksei deutera parousia?<br /><br />Pleon oi pistoi (aka MMORPG players) eine tosoi polloi pou o server dn tous sikwnei. Otan taktopoihthei auto to themataki kati mporei na ginei.<br /><br /> <br /><br />O theos mas agapaei?<br /><br />OXI. (me kapoies eksereseis isws stous female xarakthres..osoi asxolounte me online gaming kseroun to giati) Opws kathe mmorpg player etsi k autos koitaei mono thn parth tou kai poso IMBA mporei na ginei..akolouthiste to paradigma tou kai mhn muksoklete. Akoma kai sto guild tou na mpeite tha sas xrhsimopoiei gia na anevazei to lvl tou guild kai na sas pairnei xrhma.<br /><br /> <br /><br />Xeste ta Guilds kai travate na farmarete monoi sas!<br /><br /> <br /><br />Telos..an ksanadeite gria na proseuxete rwthste th ti lvl eine kai enhmerwste th pws oso k na prospathei to kanei lathos.<br /><br />Zero/Negativethe beast/zero negativehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06435867163224188663noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2387671124764714434.post-14632454145706796122011-02-06T14:22:00.000-08:002011-02-06T14:24:55.993-08:00♚ Message of HATE<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjJfl8fEcKm9t5hn9-mc8z1tD9Di9INm5djo5NOndIPAI5jNQyEfeK9h7bWj2L2CemdI3aC7kcGuVoWiAB2kXI8dARAu4XoXJjhctVOe4cBkSel38kBpCL166hOIlAA2xcZOeioAB4oXqk/s1600/kitsch2.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjJfl8fEcKm9t5hn9-mc8z1tD9Di9INm5djo5NOndIPAI5jNQyEfeK9h7bWj2L2CemdI3aC7kcGuVoWiAB2kXI8dARAu4XoXJjhctVOe4cBkSel38kBpCL166hOIlAA2xcZOeioAB4oXqk/s320/kitsch2.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5570705896329589010" /></a><br />Agaphte magazatora..XESTIKA an ta exeis ola apo 4.90.<br /><br />Gia arxh..poso hlithio eine to: “ta exw ola apo 4.90”? ta exeis ola apo 4.90 kai PANW? h apo 4.90 kai KATW?<br /><br />egw na ksereis pws tha erthw me to attitude tou katw..ki an mou peis kamia malakia tha sou kanw munhsh gia xaotikh asafia pou mou liwnei ton egefalo, gia kakogoustia, gia pseudomartiria kai gia sexoualikh parenoxlhxh.<br /><br />An pali ennoeis pws ta exeis ola apo 4.90 kai PANW…paei na pei…pws..mporw na vrw sto magazi sou kai kati me 340 euro? h 14667 euro? h 3000 euro?!??? PPPPWWWWWWW sumferei! erxomai se sena! Episis tsixles kai mpoukalakia nero mono apo sena mastora..pou allou tha vrw 4.90 to nero an dn eime touristas?<br /><br />…gia na milisoume k ligo sovara twra. Suneiditopoihsse pws:<br /><br />Aurio mporei na pethaneis apo kardiakh prosvolh h emfragma tou muokardiou epidi sou aresei na trws oloklhro to vouturo omo gia mesimeriano , na kapnizeis 3 paketa tsigara ana deuterolepto kai na kaneis nusties prin masampoukiaseis 4 arnia, 8 kokoretsia kai 28 loukanika mazi me 3 kila pswni to pasxa. An nomizeis pws h terastia kokkinh tampela sou pou mou prokalei epilipsia tha me kanei na mpw sto magazi sou, dinontas sou thn ikanopoihsh pws eise asteri tou marketing eise gelasmenos.<br /><br />Kane mia xarh ston eauto sou kai katepektash se emena (giati thn koinwnia gramenh sta paparia mou thn exw) kai vgalthn, prin kserasw ta antera mou apo thn zaloura pou mou prokaleis otan pernaw apo to magazi sou.<br /><br />An autos vevaia eine o pio satanikos tropos pou vrikes gia na eksontoseis to anthrwpino idos, pesto mou kai tha ependisw olh mou thn prika sthn agora fosfotize uperterastiwn gramatwn kai apeirwn led se ola ta xrwmata gia na stiriksw to ergo sou.<br /><br />Epeidi omws metaksi mas twra..to kovw ligo xlomo na exeis toso upsilo iq wste na exeis suneiditopoihsei pws to anthrwpino idos thelei eksontosh..pare ligo asfaltoparafiniko petreleo , vale foko sthn eleinh sou periousia kai pese k su mesa an ginete mpas kai hsuxasw ligo.<br /><br />Zero/Negativethe beast/zero negativehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06435867163224188663noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2387671124764714434.post-55744979959194758982010-09-29T14:49:00.000-07:002010-09-29T14:54:46.743-07:00♚wishlistΟυρανέ!<br />Εύχομαι να μου πετάξεις στο κεφάλι<br />αυτό το "μικρό" και όμορφο "πραγματάκι" που θέλω.<br />E;;;;;<br />Pleeeeeeaaaaase??????<br /><br /><object width="480" height="385"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/4yLprM-bEOs?fs=1&hl=el_GR"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/4yLprM-bEOs?fs=1&hl=el_GR" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="480" height="385"></embed></object>the beast/zero negativehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06435867163224188663noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2387671124764714434.post-47203122910776034862010-09-26T11:25:00.000-07:002010-09-26T11:35:08.351-07:00♚i nearly lost you thereΘέλω να ξεράσω(οτι υπάρχει μες στο κεφάλι μου)<br />να θαφτώ 800 μέτρα κάτω απο τη γη<br />και να μείνω εκεί.<br />Εχω κουραστεί να κουράζομαι.<br />Θέλω να κρεμαστώ απ'το ταβάνι,<br />απ΄το πολύφωτο.<br />Να βγώ και να τρέχω στους δρόμους<br />να κλωτσήσω,να φωνάξω,να ουρλιάξω.<br />Θέλω να πιάσω επιτέλους αυτό που κυνηγάω<br />αυτό που τρέχει σαν μουσική<br />και μαζί με τη μουσική.<br />Και όταν το πιάσω...<br />θα το δαγκώσω με όλη μου τη δύναμη!the beast/zero negativehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06435867163224188663noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2387671124764714434.post-25395771098429952812010-09-15T15:28:00.000-07:002010-09-15T15:30:25.769-07:00♚-Που πρέπει να πουλήσω την ψυχή μου πια;<br />Πείτε μου που;<br />Γαμώ την πουτανάρα μου γαμώ!!!!!the beast/zero negativehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06435867163224188663noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2387671124764714434.post-46671566188048837032010-09-07T12:19:00.000-07:002010-09-07T12:24:07.599-07:00♚rebound actionΕαν νομίζετε οτι το τέρας σώπασε <br />κάνετε πολύ μεγάλο λάθος...<br />Εδώ είναι όπως πρέπει και όπως αρμόζει παρακολουθώντας<br />τα πάντα με το κυνηγετικό του ένστικτο, <br />όλες τις λεπτομέρειες όλα τα βρώμικα και "δήθεν"<br />καλά κρυμμένα μυστικά...<br />daaaarlings....the beast/zero negativehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06435867163224188663noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2387671124764714434.post-47882333933875733172010-09-05T14:35:00.000-07:002010-09-07T12:18:47.570-07:00♚the new butcher in town<object width="480" height="385"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/uAP0w51Yjig?fs=1&hl=el_GR"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/uAP0w51Yjig?fs=1&hl=el_GR" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="480" height="385"></embed></object>the beast/zero negativehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06435867163224188663noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2387671124764714434.post-74490039557023428012010-07-15T00:34:00.000-07:002010-07-15T08:52:26.895-07:00♚夢I am getting married to a serial killer. He kills me on our wedding day.<br />My grandmother is happy that i died, my mother cries just before she herself gets<br />killed by him. His face is full of scars and his soul is black. He wears torn <br />leather and smells like burnt flesh. He has a white van full of weapons and memories.<br />He kills my brother but somehow I am smiling. We both died. I am not alone.<br />My father is absent like always..but I'm not missing him.<br /><br />I am floating..<br />Higher and higher..highest than I have ever floated. I pass the clouds and I reach<br />the moon..but then I fall.<br />I have some unfinished business down there..<br /><br />Christine cannot be alone. I go to my funeral and see her crying over my coffin..<br />I hide behind some garbage and then slowly reach out for her..<br />Our hands meet and she smiles..: "I know this feeling..I know this warmth"<br /><br />I see a big dark castle. I am in. A big pyramid of blue neon lights in front of me..a riddle i must solve so as to move on to the next level.<br />I somehow manage to do it..I didnt want to leave her behind..I stayed here just <br />for her but now i am here. I MUST get out..so I run.<br />Darkness..doors..choices..screams..In every corner another challenge. In every <br />door another riddle that must be solved. My life is in stake..and hers too.<br />Will my brother be ok?<br />It's then when I see HER EVIL PRESENCE..: " Do you want to see my face? U have to turn off the lights to see my true face. I am ugly but it was you who told me I am beautiful no matter what.."<br />I cannot utter a word..I dont want to see it..: "no, no, no"<br />She turns off the lights and I see it..I am scared to death..my heart beats fast and I start screaming..she cries..her white hair starting to fall.."why?"<br />Back to the neon pyramid..<br /><br />I am floating again.<br />In a hospital I see her dead body..i recognize her from the pure white hair..she had wrinkles. Her lips have silicon and a pink lipstick on..make up all over her face.<br />She looks beautiful but why? She is dead cause of me..I remember now. I told her to be herself and stop torturing her body.."you are beautiful just the way you are.."<br />She answered "no..I am not.." Then I told her she has cancer. She didnt cry..but she held a curse and thats why I saw her real face. I had to..and then when theory and practice met I..I......I screamed and yelled. <br /><br />I am in heaven..a big playground with strange people..old people...I dont belong here. Though I am happy I dont belong here. It's then when my demon appears..<br />Black leather, black lips, great shape, tall with feminine ways and a snake tongue.<br />Her lips are stitched together now..she has a strange grin..I smile and I feel happy after such a long time..<br />I walk towards her. I am feeling a strange sexual attraction..I want to follow her.<br />"WHYYYYY??? why do u want to go there? DONT GO! there is no turning back!!"..the old men and women screamed..I SMILED and LAUGHED and took her hand after kissing her.<br />I want to be with her. I want to burn. Lead me..<br />no unfinished business, no more warring about anyone..<br />AS HEAVEN ITSELF COMMANDS ME OUT OF ITS LAIR..I FEAR NOT..MY FACE LINED WITH DARKNESS I'LL GO.<br />HELL OVER HEAVEN.<br /><br />Zero/Negativethe beast/zero negativehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06435867163224188663noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2387671124764714434.post-56040759495673207822010-07-08T16:44:00.000-07:002010-07-09T01:51:02.124-07:00♚Rivotril シルエット・ロマンスBlurred vision<br />Relaxed?<br />Melancholic<br />Pushed to the limits<br />Slowly drifting away<br />Becoming Powerless<br />Losing myself to something..new?<br />Romance<br />Slow motion<br />Mumbling <br />Tears of Joy?<br />Tears of sadness?<br />Forgetting memories<br />Candle light<br />Freezing<br />I don't want to let go..<br />Perfection doesn't exist..I AM LETTING GO.<br />but then again..it's me..me...it's..me..<br />so many years.<br />so many illusions.<br />It's hard..it's necessary...It's vital.<br />Should I? Could I? Will I?<br />Inside I find a black hole..warm and quiet.<br />There..that's where I want to lose myself in..<br />Should I? Could I? Will I?<br />More..more...I want more. I need more.<br />Freedom, fear, death.<br /><br />Zero/Negativethe beast/zero negativehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06435867163224188663noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2387671124764714434.post-63178105718678096442010-06-12T11:20:00.000-07:002010-06-12T11:46:51.538-07:00♚being yourself scares people awayYou are unique in your own beautiful and special way.<br />They way you dress,style up yourself,pose and stand is a bit<br />different from the others as it should be.<br />The way you walk,talk,smoke,eat or even breath has its own style.<br /><br />Well...wasn't that supposed to be like that?<br />And not in the "elite" way but in the "each person<br />is a unique entity" way.<br /><br />The Beast does not think so...<br />Being yourself scares people away.<br />Being uber stylish scares people away.<br />Being different always scares people away.<br />If so then what is left for you?<br />Being the beautiful and tragic king or queen in <br />your own tragic kingdom?<br /><br />Oh you foolish petty little people out there...<br />How you tire me...the beast/zero negativehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06435867163224188663noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2387671124764714434.post-87729262282937656702010-05-30T01:01:00.000-07:002010-05-30T01:02:12.464-07:00♚hello worldI HATE YOUthe beast/zero negativehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06435867163224188663noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2387671124764714434.post-56693338899357412572010-05-05T18:32:00.000-07:002010-05-05T18:41:37.108-07:00Yasu Hospitalized<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjyMizP4UYDwaD47B5IFrrx7gtfwf8mEvHtCREpF_kU1pftU8aWS_pKx0QwJNpuYTjdwI0f2RpFtsmIUKZhl1mndhlHsWiBTALAG26yD6laCtp_fMnyWLhYRSnGRIAppQr4V3ImMs2VUco/s1600/scan0004.jpg"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 293px; height: 400px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjyMizP4UYDwaD47B5IFrrx7gtfwf8mEvHtCREpF_kU1pftU8aWS_pKx0QwJNpuYTjdwI0f2RpFtsmIUKZhl1mndhlHsWiBTALAG26yD6laCtp_fMnyWLhYRSnGRIAppQr4V3ImMs2VUco/s400/scan0004.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5467966160603646050" /></a><br />It has been determined that yasu will be <a href="http://i44.tinypic.com/21agsxx.jpg">temporarily taking a break from activities due to</a> the continuing condition of his throat since before Acid Black Cherry's 2009 "Q.E.D." Tour.<br /><br />(Details)<br /><br />During rehearsals immediately before the start of the tour, yasu complained of discomfort in his throat, causing him to consult a specialist. As a result of that visit, cysts were discovered on his vocal cords.<br />As this is a condition that is difficult to heal through natural progression, it was determined that he needed to undergo surgery.<br />After receiving this diagnosis, we consulted with yasu himself for several days as to the best course of action. Due to his great strength of will, it was decided to proceed with the tour as planned.<br /><br />However, this aggravated the cysts on his vocal cords, causing inflammation.<br />Looking towards a long tour, yasu was hospitalized for a few days to alleviate the swelling, which caused us to decide upon canceling the September 12 show at Koshigaya.<br /><br />During the tour, there were times where yasu had difficulty with his voice, and his condition was nowhere near perfect; but due to the care he himself was making sure to do for his throat, as well as with some help from prescribed medication, he did not see a worsening of his initial symptoms...so he decided to carry on to the final performance of the tour at the Nippon Budokan.<br /><br />Currently, with the tour at an end, we have once again consulted with yasu himself, who has decided to undergo surgery for the removal of the cysts on his vocal cords to avoid any deterioration of his current condition, as well as the recovery and subsequent medical treatment.<br /><br />As a result of his complete attention being turned toward his recovery, the show planned for December 24 at Osaka-jo Hall has been canceled, and as for the acoustic shows planned as a special favor for the purchasers of the "Q.E.D." album, we will be postponing them until yasu's throat fully heals, with our deepest apologies.<br /><br />When yasu's voice recovers completely, he plans to resume activities.<br /><br />Fanclub members who requested tickets to the Osaka-jo Hall show will be refunded the cost of their tickets and the 500 yen shipping charge.<br />Please direct all inquiries regarding these tickets to Save Us! via phone (03-5728-1558, weekdays, 13:00~18:00).<br /><br />While we are aware that we are causing those of you always standing in support of Acid Black Cherry a great deal of worry, we request your support and understanding in this matterthe beast/zero negativehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06435867163224188663noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2387671124764714434.post-57630633598195562582010-04-28T02:01:00.000-07:002010-04-28T02:11:49.232-07:00♚ WARNINGMy head never rests. <br />I keep on seeking for answers that only i get to give in the end. O.o<br />No one ever dares to get involved..no one is allowed anyway.<br />I set the rules and no one defies them.<br />This is how it used to be, this is how it is and this is how it will be.<br /><br />I have no idea of what is meant to be wrong or right, of what is beautiful or ugly..or what are the healthy limits of a mentally stable, creative person.<br />I understand people's feelings by their reactions. I understand how they think, act,judge, swear,attack, love, cry or lie. I get the drift..i just don't feel it. Somehow i managed to lock myself up and though seeing,understanding and sensing so many things..I don't fit in. They have no influence at me at all. No matter how loud they are yelling, no matter how hard they are trying to force themselves to <br />reach me, they can't. It's like I'm locked in a room with walls of high safety sound proofing glass. I can observe and understand them but I can't hear a thing of what they are trying to say to me..some of them fortunately know some kind of a sign language so i don't feel alone all the time..<br />They are the reason why i still have hope. <br />Not hope that will definitely lead me to some kind of redemption..just hope that i might get some moments of happiness every once in a while.<br /><br />Being locked in that room is my reality. I have my own rules in here..I have my own perspective of wrong and right, of evil and good, of healthy limits and creativity. I am the judge and trust me i am a really NASTY ONE. I have a clock ticking right next to me..and when the time comes i will drown myself in here.<br /><br />I DON'T HEAR YOU PEOPLE! so stop acting like retards and stop messing with my classy glass prison. <br />-Your bare hands can do nothing-<br />I am a selfish bastard and you are fucking lucky I am in here. You wouldn't want me out..not after being locked for so many years. I easily manipulate you as it is..make yourselves a favor and keep your safe distance.<br />Unless you have a nuclear bomb in your pocket that is capable of evaporating me, my prison and unfortunately you..don't even try coming near me. In simple words, If you're not willing to die just to kill me out of my misery, <br />u better enjoy your freedom along with your ignorance that makes you happy :)<br /><br />At this point you must think I am a total jerk. Well I am, but so are you..and saying those things I said above, just proves how much i love and care for you. <br />That's right..those aren't words of hatred. Those are words of love.<br />I fucking adore hating you..but i can't hate you enough without loving you first..and of course I am not capable of loving you if I don't have you alive and well..so I must protect you..and the best way of protecting you <br />is by warning you about things that might hurt you. For example...things like..me~<br /><br />In case some silly human read this and still wants to approach me..<br />..well...you are more than welcome :) as i said..you might be my only hope for a moment of happiness.<br />Who knows..maybe you will be determined enough to persuade me of letting you in and maybe showing you around my cute little prison..<br />Know though that this is an irreversible change and you WILL be kicked out sooner or later..and then, not being able to fit into that world you once lived..will eventually kill you :/ or drive you nuts; Either way you are screwed.<br /><br />Try thinking before acting in this case.<br />love you all..<br /><br />ZERO/NEGATIVEthe beast/zero negativehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06435867163224188663noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2387671124764714434.post-64436934866907224632010-04-18T17:26:00.000-07:002010-04-18T17:27:29.259-07:00♚pleaseLeave me alone.the beast/zero negativehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06435867163224188663noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2387671124764714434.post-11604847453579877082010-04-18T09:49:00.000-07:002010-04-18T11:53:52.826-07:00♚i thank god for the suffering-Forgive me father for i have sinned<br />-Talk to me child...<br />-I hate the world...i can't breath<br />i want to hurt them,beat them,make them bleed<br />the beast is talking to me.<br />And i wish to release it...<br />At first i resisted with all my might<br />i thought it was the devil...<br />But i kept feelng strongly that it was my pure logic self<br />talking to me.<br />Telling me what to do<br />Guiding me through the dark paths of my soul<br />All the ancient but basic insicts of what we are<br />Beasts with logic and emotion<br />Free will was what God gave us<br />wasn't it?<br />-do not be blasphemous<br />God can hear you my son!<br />-Yes father he can...<br />But he can also speak through me...<br /><br /><object width="480" height="385"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/vRH092kKCSQ&hl=en_US&fs=1&"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/vRH092kKCSQ&hl=en_US&fs=1&" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="480" height="385"></embed></object>the beast/zero negativehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06435867163224188663noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2387671124764714434.post-3238006877021658782010-04-16T17:50:00.000-07:002010-04-16T17:51:11.118-07:00♚coming back to lifeWhere were you when I was burned and broken<br />While the days slipped by from my window watching<br />Where were you when I was hurt and helpless<br />Because the things you say and the things you do surround me<br />While you were hanging yourself on someone else's words<br />Dying to believe in what you heard<br />I was staring straight into the shining sun<br /><br />Lost in thought and lost in time<br />While the seeds of lifeand the seeds of change were planted<br />Outside the rain fell dark and slow<br />While I pondered on this dangerous but irresistible pastime<br />I took a heavenly ride through our silence<br />I knew the moment had arrived<br />For killing the past and coming back to life<br /><br />I took a heavenly ride through our silence<br />I knew the waiting had begun<br />And headed straight..into the shining sun<br /><br />PINK FLOYDthe beast/zero negativehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06435867163224188663noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2387671124764714434.post-76435701335013172942010-04-04T15:29:00.000-07:002010-04-04T15:54:36.654-07:00♚[ ]<object width="480" height="385"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/-hyE-apVuLs&hl=en_US&fs=1&"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/-hyE-apVuLs&hl=en_US&fs=1&" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="480" height="385"></embed></object><br /><br /><br />the miracle that falls into darkness<br /><br />In the rather wondrous lonely sky my thoughts that will never die are floating<br />The cold winds bring the season, my frozen white sigh heralded winter<br /><br />My voice is in the letter written to you<br />It wafts down under you along with the white snow...<br /><br />My heartless words torture you well I suppose until even now it pains you<br />And in the interior of the pain, the fact was that you continued to conceal a face unknown to me, didn't you?<br /><br />Without feeling your pain<br />I was making you suffer alone in the darkness<br /><br />With you, whom I met in the pure white winter I want it so that the two of us can share the pain<br />Always, by your side unchangeable, though the seasons cycle again...<br /><br />In the dreary room I fear that I will lose you as you sink into the void<br />So that you won't disappear like this<br />I bounded your limbs, body, neck, and fingertips with red thread<br />Over and over, again and again, until your movements die off<br /><br />I feel your existence until it hurts<br />Your smile that seemed broken was what I noticed first<br />Our fingertips touched they shiver as if they were freezing<br /><br />You, looking like you would disappear in the pure white snow; show me the weakness you carry with you<br />Don't cry, for you are no longer alone let us watch the dream together...<br />Let us go to meet the waiting sorrowful, white, first blizzard of the season<br />If this earth should fall to a desolate end let us clasp our hands and walk, the two of usthe beast/zero negativehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06435867163224188663noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2387671124764714434.post-77802652736481611242010-04-01T12:57:00.000-07:002010-04-04T03:59:18.433-07:00♚ROCK N ROLLsteady as a rock<br />but rolling with the wind<br />in my own pace<br />with my own rhythms and moves.the beast/zero negativehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06435867163224188663noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2387671124764714434.post-61960390747767561482010-03-22T07:20:00.000-07:002010-03-22T07:25:05.435-07:00♚a tribute<object width="480" height="385"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/_HUQRL_JddI&hl=en_US&fs=1&"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/_HUQRL_JddI&hl=en_US&fs=1&" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="480" height="385"></embed></object><br /><br /><br />we must suffer<br />to free our pain<br />can you help us<br />to find our way<br />you're here to stay<br />stay here in paradise<br />I'd end this moment<br />to be with you<br />through morphic oceans<br />I'd lay here with you<br />only to stay<br />stay here in paradise<br />only to stay son<br />lonely from this maelstrom<br />free are you<br />from this maelstrom<br />to be with you <br /><br /><br />A tribute to a song that brings shivers down my spine<br />and takes me to places that i've never been<br />but somehow belong there.<br />thank you mr Mc Coy.the beast/zero negativehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06435867163224188663noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2387671124764714434.post-60090338009169930732010-03-14T07:56:00.000-07:002010-03-14T07:57:29.579-07:00♚<object width="480" height="385"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/ClQepFF-Sr0&hl=en_US&fs=1&"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/ClQepFF-Sr0&hl=en_US&fs=1&" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="480" height="385"></embed></object>the beast/zero negativehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06435867163224188663noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2387671124764714434.post-14357529843552014822010-03-11T20:55:00.000-08:002010-03-11T21:04:22.468-08:00♚ XanaxAlprazolam, also known under the trade names Xanax (not to be confused with Zantac), Xanor, Alprax, and Niravam, is a short-acting drug of the benzodiazepine class. It is primarily used to treat moderate to severe anxiety disorders (e.g., social anxiety disorder) and panic attacks, and is used as an adjunctive treatment for anxiety associated with moderate depression. It is also available in an extended-release form, Xanax XR, both of which are now available in generic form. Alprazolam possesses anxiolytic, sedative, hypnotic, anticonvulsant, and muscle relaxant properties.<br /><br />Alprazolam has a fast onset of symptom relief (within the first week); it is the most commonly misused benzodiazepine, however the majority of prescribed users do not develop a substance use disorder.<br /><br /><br />Panic disorder<br /><br />Alprazolam is FDA-approved for the short-term treatment (up to 8 weeks) of panic disorder, with or without agoraphobia. Alprazolam is very effective in treating moderate to severe anxiety, essential tremor, and panic attacks. Physicians that elect to prescribe alprazolam for longer than 8 weeks should be aware that continued efficacy has not been systematically demonstrated beyond 8 weeks' use, as tolerance to alprazolam's effects may occur after 8 weeks and necessitate discontinuation or physician-directed dose escalation.However, patients with panic disorder have been treated on an open basis for up to 8 months without apparent loss of benefit. The physician should periodically reassess the usefulness of the drug for the individual patient. Alprazolam is recommended for treatment resistant cases of panic disorder where there is no history of tolerance or dependence.<br /><br /><br />Anxiety disorder<br /><br />Alprazolam is indicated for the management of anxiety disorder (a condition corresponding most closely to the APA Diagnostic and Statistical Manual DSM-III-R diagnosis of generalized anxiety disorder) or the short-term relief of symptoms of anxiety. Alprazolam is recommended for the short-term treatment (2–4 weeks) of severe acute anxiety.<br /><br />Alprazolam is sometimes prescribed for anxiety with associated depression. There is some evidence for antidepressant treatment of clinical depression in outpatient settings; evidence for inpatients is lacking. The antidepressant effects of alprazolam may be due to its effects on beta-adrenergic receptors. Other benzodiazepines are not known to have antidepressant activity. Studies show that any antidepressant action of alprazolam is questionable and generally weak in comparison to those of antidepressant medications. In contrast, while alprazolam in acute or short-term treatment may have some antidepressant properties, there is evidence that up to a third of long-term users of alprazolam may develop depression.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />Side-effects<br /># drowsiness, dizziness, lightheadedness, fatigue, unsteadiness and impaired coordination, vertigo<br /># skin rash, respiratory depression, constipation<br /># disinhibition<br /># suicidal ideation (rare)<br /># urinary retention (infrequent)<br /># hallucinations (rare)<br /># ataxia, slurred speech<br /># short-term memory loss and impairment of memory functions<br /># anterograde amnesia and concentration problems<br /># Change in libido<br /># dry mouth (infrequent)<br /># increase in appetite<br /># jaundice (very rare)<br /><br />Paradoxical Reactions<br /># muscle twitching and tremor<br /># aggression<br /># rage, hostility<br /># mania, agitation, hyperactivity and restlessness<br /><br />Zero/Negativethe beast/zero negativehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06435867163224188663noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2387671124764714434.post-40327869488834739422010-03-06T11:04:00.000-08:002010-03-06T11:05:55.154-08:00♚archive-hateI hate your face right now<br />I can't stand a sight of you<br />So please<br />Leave me alone<br /><br />................<br /><br /><br />How could this happen<br />Such change of heart<br />Now I can't stand to be around you<br />I can't pet to be this near to you<br />Don't believe a word I saythe beast/zero negativehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06435867163224188663noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2387671124764714434.post-50589868963876592742010-02-28T04:13:00.000-08:002010-02-28T10:51:36.086-08:00♚Mono-follow the map<object width="425" height="344"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/89zzHCfZ_zs&hl=en_US&fs=1&"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/89zzHCfZ_zs&hl=en_US&fs=1&" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="425" height="344"></embed></object><br /><br />"the sea is made of our saltwater tears ,he muses.<br />as the man drifts into a sea lying below.<br />sunlight separates a path for him to swim<br />and the currents carry him towards the place where light hits the ocean floor.<br />despite its warmth these waters are forlorn to him.<br />he descends lower with his palms together<br />longing for something that he cannot wholy remember.<br />the further he sinks,the younger he becomes<br />and deeper into his memory he travels<br /><br />on the bottom of the sea,<br />puzzling shapes and lines scater in all directions<br />like a treasure map.<br />pictures of life above water,a mountain,a cliff,a tree,<br />pave the surface around a young girl deep in slumber.<br /><br />her face rests peacefully<br />as if a part of her is drifting somewhere <br />in another world.<br />from where he stands,it is all a painting to him.<br />a portrait of a young girl waiting patiently underwater.<br /><br />his eyes follow the footprints that lead <br />from her body to the drawing of a single tree that stands alone.<br />as the sea currents push forward,he imagines the branches<br />blowing with the movement of water.<br />with his finger,he traces a ring around the tree<br />again and again as if it'd become real before his eyes.<br /><br />without awakening her,he lies down and closes his eyes to sleep near her,<br />hoping to meet her there in another place,<br />another dream,wherever she travels to<br />in her sleep."<br /><br />Monothe beast/zero negativehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06435867163224188663noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2387671124764714434.post-8487603485763295702010-02-26T14:14:00.000-08:002010-06-14T06:07:04.709-07:00♚a "sudden death"and a true lovea "sudden death".<br />pause.<br />time stopped turning.<br />words lost their meaning.<br /><br />or did they not?<br />a "sudden death" is occured sometimes<br />as a result of bad choices<br />and inevitable mistakes<br /><br />the cure?<br />your own strength<br />your own true love<br />such as friends and family<br />friends who are family<br />people with honest smiles<br />and a mind of their own.<br /><br />True love lasts<br />True love waits<br /><br /><br /><object width="425" height="344"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/zbjMEUmwp2o&hl=en_US&fs=1&"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/zbjMEUmwp2o&hl=en_US&fs=1&" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="425" height="344"></embed></object>the beast/zero negativehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06435867163224188663noreply@blogger.com0